I had a week of pretty bad pain before my beloved took matters into his own hands and got me to go to the doctor, who convinced me to go to the hospital emergency room, where they did a CAT scan (the kind without felines), which confirmed that my appendix had burst and I needed surgery pronto. I had assumed the abdominal torture was a bad flu and even thought, "maybe it would be worth a flu shot next year, after all." I was so sure it wasn't anything serious, such as my appendix, because I didn't have a sharp pain in my right side. Turns out you don't need a sharp pain in the right side to have appendicitis! I told myself, "I always get better after a while." And, indeed, I had started to feel better. Later I found out that people do feel better after the inflamed appendix bursts! Then the real problems start.

That whole week before surgery, when I didn't know I had appendicitis, I'd been doing MAP conings and kept testing to keep the conings open. I did not think of asking if I should go to a doctor! This is point number one, a most important point: Always, always, always test and ask if you should go to a doctor.* The week prior to diagnosis and surgery I did lots of Microbial Balancing Program Phase 1—General Balancings because I couldn't concentrate on anything more complicated. I must have had the most microbially balanced appendix-challenged body in the Western world. I don't regret having done these balancings because my microbes had big challenges ahead, with constant IV drips of heavy-duty antibiotics for ten days.

I had my MAP coning open the entire time I was in the hospital and for a while afterwards. Sometimes it was emotionally hard to be in the hospital, and I wish I'd thought of doing a calibration. I think I held back from thinking of things to do, such as a calibration, as I was kind of flummoxed because my hands were not available for kinesiology testing (because of the IV lines). Point number two: If you can't test, just do your best. I had thought of asking my husband to bring my essences, but I decided it was too hard to choose essences without my hands available. I could have done one of three things: I have my regular favorites that I often test for and could have taken those, I could have chosen essences by definition, or I could have chosen by intuition. In the first days at the hospital, I couldn't eat or drink anything, but I could have asked my husband to put essences in water and then place some on my lips. I was also afraid of dealing with medical personnel who might see the essences (and I was in no shape to explain them), but my husband could have given them to me when we were alone.

I tried to remember to tell my MAP team everything that was going on. Every time an IV bag was changed, I'd ask what was in it and then repeat aloud what I was told. I would say things like "Okay, you're going to draw my blood now." Or, "So the reason my doctor wants me to drink this is so I can have an x-ray that will show her if anything is blocked." I just repeated what they told me. However, I could have done better, telling my team things like, "I'm going to push the morphine button now," or "I'm going to try to do without the morphine for a long time so they'll remove it and I'll need one less IV line." I sometimes slipped into assuming my MAP team could read my mind, and maybe they can, but I think I would have been better off talking (or mumbling) to them, as I'm not sure my thinking was always as focused as it could have been.

There are two other things I did, which I think would be valuable for others to know about, though they are not Perelandra processes. One is singing; the other is "doing it for someone else."

Singing. There was a time about halfway into my hospital stay when I knew I had to take action or I would never get better. I was scared silly. My surgeon had mentioned several times the possibility that she would have to "go back in." My body was not accepting water or food, and they would not let me out of there until I was drinking and eating. I forced myself to drink, but my body refused to accept the liquid. I was already several days past the first projected date of my release from the hospital. I'm not sure how the idea got into my head, but, desperate for help, I started singing out loud. I made my husband join me. After several songs, he said, "You look better!" I walked around the hallway, and several nurses said, "You have color back in your face! You look better!" One of the nurses joined us in a round. It seemed to me a miracle when the people in the hospital room next to where we were sitting burst into songs and laughter. It was great to feel better, but even better to know that I had influenced other people to feel better, too, at a time when I could barely take care of myself.

Doing It for Someone Else. Just a few days after surgery, though I was not feeling much pain, I was not feeling well. I was kind of sinking into a downward spiral. I was not yet in a private room and could get no rest and almost no sleep. The high of "Wow! I survived surgery! I'm alive!" had worn off. Then, my sister called me, and I could hear her voice sink as she said, in shock and surprise, "You're not doing better!" I instantly thought to myself, "I can't do this to her" and began to mobilize my forces. My thinking kicked in. I told her my roommate situation was intolerable, and she helped me figure out how to handle it. I marshaled my desire to live. I became focused and took action. I could not let down this woman who has done so much for me from infancy through adulthood. She truly saved my life; I was letting myself drift away.

I'd like to invite everybody who uses the various Perelandra processes to give a few moments of thought to what you would do if there is ever a time when you can't use your kinesiology-friendly hands, or if you are suddenly hospitalized. If something's wrong, remember to ask your team if you should go to your doctor! Sing, and, if necessary, do it for someone else!

S.S., California


* Editor's Note: It can be difficult to get a clear objective answer when kinesiology testing in this kind of situation. Use your best judgment or the best judgment of someone you trust when making decisions about your care in addition to using Perelandra processes. Essences and all of the Perelandra health processes can be used along with any other medical care.